The Author Of My Faith

by Thursday, February 15, 2018
“What if I cannot end well?” is a concern that surfaces from time to time. I feel God has given me a really good start in terms of my life and Christian journey. I fear the decisions I had or will make may eventually screw up any future plans. Inwardly, I become hesitant when there is an opportunity to share on what I term as “the good old days.” I am supposed to feel happy in giving God glory through the sharing, but why am I feeling hesitant?

This morning, I saw the YouVersion pop up notification on Philippians 1:6. As I read and mediated on the words, I realize the concern I have is invalid and can be disempowered. I was too focused on my own conduct, making efforts apart from Jesus, knowing my standard will never match up.

In reality, He is the one who has written and will always be writing the story of my life. He is the author and finisher of my faith; the one who ordained all the days of my life in His book even before one of them came to be. He does not use a pen with regular pen ink; He writes it in His blood and suffering. There are no tattered and useless pages in that book. All I got to do is to back up His words and not snatch that precious pen from His hand.

I am thankful for God’s word today. ❤

2017 Reflections

by Saturday, December 30, 2017

I recalled past conversations when my older friends would often say, “Once your age hits 20, you will start realising how time passes quickly.” It is so true! Albeit a fast paced year, this year has a meaningful one, filled with breakthroughs that I am thankful for.

My Walk with God
“But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit.” – 2 Corinthians 3:18

I received this verse as a theme for this year. I had opportunities to revisit the basics of my Christian faith, understanding Jesus for all His worth, and learning to behold Him. I realized I was used to solving my problems with my own strength without truly depending on the Holy Spirit. I did not understand what it meant to yield / depend on my Father. I prayed and went through a humbling process, often admitting that I have no strengths in certain areas, but He has and will empower, so I fix my eyes and trust. I am thankful for this process helped me grow closer to Him.

Job Blessings
As I am working in a recruitment firm, our industry rides on how the job market fares. With a slow market, my colleagues and I have found it tougher than usual to close cases. It affects the commission we can take home every month. At the start of the year, I declared in faith while praying that I will close X amount of sales per month and obtain X amount of basic salary upon salary review in the end of this year. I am thankful as God answered the desires of my heart. The amount I hit for my sales (each month except 2)  was way beyond my expectations – beyond what I have asked for. Also, I received a salary increment at the end of the year. Upon reflection, I came to understand that the children of God does not ride on the current market that fluctuates; we ride on the economy of heaven that is ever prosperous.

Driving License
This was long overdue, but I finally got my driving license! The hardest part about this process was to overcome the fear of failure. I was so resigned to not passing in the first try due to previous experiences, that when my instructors told me I would, I could not believe / fear to believe. I knew I had a wrong mindset, but just could not shake it off. When I managed to get the license in 1 try, I was really happy about that. It was significant in breaking the previous episodes of failures I experienced previously.

Various Overseas Trips
Manila Mission Trip (Feb 2017)
Aonang, Thailand (May 2017)
Paris (Dec 2017)
Thank God for a fast paced, yet peaceful and fruitful year. With constant blessings pouring in the coming years, I hope I can be a good steward of what I have been given. I hope this year has been a great year for you as well. God bless! :)

“Who Are You, God?”

by Wednesday, September 20, 2017
There were countless bible studies and sermons I listened to that emphasised on the 10 commandments. Because of the many times I had to memorise those commandments (so I can have a can of potato chips or sweets from my bible study teacher - yeah thank God for creating food hahaha), I formed the idea since young that God expected people to have a high level of moral standard. In my life, as far as God's words were concerned, it was only about do-s and do not-s. In my imagination, He appeared like a stern Man with a rule book and cane.

In journeying and discovering what Christianity is, I find myself having to redefine my mind's image of who I think God really is. In one of my constant prayers, I voiced out how much I don't really know, but long to know Him. I may not have arrived, but I have to say that I am really happy because God's word is readily available as a foundation for my understanding.

As I read Exodus 20 today, verse 2 stood out for me:

I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery.

I come to realise how important it is for me to view God's commands in the light of who He is. I thought that God was a taskmaster, only concerned about my moral conduct. I had never focused on the reason behind the commandments God gave, which is out of His loving protection towards me. He does not wanting any unnecessary danger or bondage in my path. God is my Father who lovingly protects me.
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