Hello bloggers and readers out there thanks for visiting my humble blog. This page is a dedication about my journey in Christ, and His goodness over my life.
I was born in a Christian family. Since young, I heard stories about God's goodness and the miracles He did in my life. However, I was not really interested in God. I went to church because my family went every Sunday together. I looked forward to play catching with my friends and go for flute classes. At 10 years of age, my family left church, and I gradually drifted away from God.
I recalled a time when I was 12 years old. I was temporarily living in a special children's dormitory. I came back from school, wanting to change from my school shoes to the slippers my parents newly bought for me. I realized that it was gone from the common shoe rack. Being young and treating the slippers like my only prized asset, I cried the entire day till I slept, praying hard that God would help me to find it. Funnily enough, I woke up in the morning and found this random boy wearing my slippers.
This seemingly insignificant moment caused me to realize that God is around and real. I became convicted of my sins. The next day, I spoke with my guardian at length, wanting to dedicate my life to Jesus. From that day on, I had an awareness that God is with me. I did not attend church though, and I slowly drifted again. However, I somehow always knew that God is pursuing me, even when I did not take His words or plans for my life into account.
At 15, I was invited by my senior from secondary school to his church. I rededicated my life to Jesus in hope that I would take my walk with God seriously and commit to learn more. Upon visiting a number of times, I noticed something different in the youths' walks with God, versus mine. While we were all doing our basic daily Christian habits, were discipled by a leader, and equipped with the skills to evangelize, I felt something was missing. I came to understand that those people had a personal encounter with God.
I had not felt God before. I did not know what that even looked like. I decided to read the bible more intensively. I found the disciples lives changing upon encountering Jesus. They never walk the same. God led them to their God-given destinies, and used them mightily to be a blessing to this world. Even when they were persecuted till death, they held on to faith so strongly. This amazed me. I really wanted to encounter God for myself.
Cut the long story short, at 17, I received my first encounter with the Holy Spirit. My hands trembled under the power for the whole 2 hours during the service. I went for prayer after the pastor shared his sermon. Upon being prayed for, I felt a weight, gentle yet firm, pushing me back. I could no longer stand. As I laid on the floor, I saw a white light beam (like a white canvas). That was interesting since the entire hall was dark. For the very first time, I heard this voice in my spirit, which I believe it was God, telling me, “Joy, I’m making all things new!”
My life was never the same again. God empowered me to drop the grudges I held so firmly towards people, giving me His heart to forgive the people who have hurt me. He placed His passion for the lost, the broken, the "hopeless", and gave me the boldness to share about Jesus. He gave me a love for the Word, which fueled my desire to be more like Him, and for journeying in times of difficulties.
I’m thankful that God is a God of second chances, and He will love me when I am unworthy, I may run away from Him, but He relentlessly pursues to the end. Indeed,
The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance. - 2 Peter 3:9
I am convinced that Jesus is real, and therefore decided to blog about my learning journey with God. Most post are spontaneous thoughts / reflections from daily life. I hope this blesses and encourages you in your walk with God.
- Joy (Aesther)