Dreams- part 2
Today I was feeling down as I saw the situation at home. It left me hopeless. Even though God ignited the family dream in my heart, I just felt tired to continue running for the dream. I was like having a debate with God, telling Him that I cannot do it anymore. I want to stop… I was telling Him through my prayer that it is not that one altar call which can let my hope be lifted; I needed constant reminders. I asked God the same question again, and again: “why me?” And there is the devil trying to tell me: “you cannot do it.” But anyway, I thank God for lifting my hope again through these verses I read today:
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
2 Corinthians 14:6-8
When I was reading these verses, I immediately knew that it was God speaking to me and reminding me that He is actually with me. God was actually telling me not to lose hope, and start to put total trust in Him. Even though it appears that everything I hoped for, prayed for, and did is like nothing, but I know God wants to renew me again. I may not see the dream being fulfilled yet, but I know that today, He is teaching me that I need to stop looking at the present, but begin to dream with God; I need to fix my eyes on the eternal good!
I am aware, to run for the dream, I need to push away all obstacles that stop me from running for the dream: the lies of the devil. Shortly after I read these verses above, I flipped one page, and I was reminded of the verse that my discipler, Karina, reminded me, to be wary of the devil:
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:5
If I do not want to give up running for the dream, I need to cease hearing whatever that the devil is trying to insert into my mind: half-truths, which are nothing but lies. Therefore, today, I started to renounce every lie that the devil put in my head: no more hope running for the dream and that I cannot be used to run for the dream. I started to take all these thoughts captive and obedient to Christ, and I felt an unexplainable peace. And I really want to thank God for His trust in me, and for the leaders He placed in my life…
In conclusion, I believe I would need to be reminded every day that God believes in me… And I hope to see the dream totally fulfilled, just as how God wants it to happen…